There’s a size 0
Awhile back I sent a drawing I made to my friend that makes us laugh even till today. I went shopping with my husband and daughter and decided to enter a store. Mind you, I had no business being in this teeny poppy, night club type of store; not conservative like me at all. But I wanted to buy a dress that I could wear with tights. And also to feel young. I’m not old, and certainly my personality is far from being 30. So I thought why not.
I went in despite my better judgment and then my husband said to me “Really? Are you sure? because you’re like over 30”
…and that’s why I killed him…. END of Life Lesson…..Just kidding.
I stormed into the shop, completely motivated to prove that I could still rock these kinds of trendy almost slutty types of clothes and still be true to being a mom and wife. Heck we all need a little edge now and then right. Just because we become a wife and start having kids, doesn’t mean we are suddenly boring. Us girls like to dress up and be told we look young and pretty.
I went in and found a dress I thought would suit me a lot, it wasn’t exactly what I was looking for but I thought that it would be nice to have a little black dress like the rest of the female population.
I tried this thing on and came out only to find a bouncy blood who asked me if I liked it.
And I asked her if this was okay on my body type, since I’m not skinny, I’m mainly all pudge. And she responded with ‘like a super duper’ yeah. Right away after seeing myself in the mirror noticing how thick my thighs were in comparison to this young blond who didn’t look like she was old enough to be working there.
I told her I thought this dress was more suited to her size and didn’t really do it for me. Trying to make her commission she said, no way it really does suit you. I told her ‘well you’re a size S so it would suit her more’. She then smiled to be like a naive bimbo (god bless her soul) and said, “Oh I’m a XS’ I asked her what size was XS and she said 0…. There is a size 0 out there ladies, a freaking 0.
Doesn’t 0 mean nothing, nada? I felt like I should dig a hole and just crawl into it.
When I came back out to see my husband just coming back from doing a lap around the food court to keep my daughter distracted. He asked me how it went and if I liked anything. And being a defiant girl who just got served into her place, I said that it was too expensive, rather then just saying he was kinda right.
These clothes were not me, and I shouldn’t feel bad about it. I like my body the way it is and I love my age. I think the little skanky black dress is not for me, even when I was younger since I have always been a bit more conservative. But I thought to myself, I’m okay with that. I don’t need to feel old, out of shape, because I am a mom, and a wife and I’m really happy to be both those things.
So the lesson of the story is?….there are a few lessons depends on what it means to you. One lesson from this could be to like your body, to not look at size, or to be you and not be who you think you should be, or to be 20.
But the lesson for me was that, I don’t have to prove that I’m a young girl at heart. I already have a guy in my life who thinks I’m beautiful, not just pretty. And that’s my lesson, I’d rather be beautiful to him, then be pretty to the rest.